AWKWARD. "I Am Jenna Hamilton" & "Fateful" AKA: Why Jenna Should Have Choosen Matty...For Now...

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 So last night was the hour long season finale. It has been a really long time since I have been so emotionally invested in a show and so the finale was an emotional roller coaster to say the least.

To his credit, The Boy gave me a kiss goodnight and then left me on the couch to watch the show in peace. Which was probably for the best as I may have had a few spazzy moments. To be fair though A LOT went down last night, so bear with me on this, it's gonna be a long one.

SPOILERS AHEAD
If you haven't watched last night's special one hour finale yet, go do that right now....I'll wait....





Welcome Back!

Okay, let's start with giving props where there due to Lissa, for FINALLY standing up to Sadie! It's about time. It was a nice way to end the season, all though this begs the question as to who is Sadie going to hang out with next year? Clearly her and Lissa are no longer friends, unless for some reason Lissa comes crawling back over the hiatus, and I don't think Jake will put up with her tormenting of Jenna, so who's left? Matty? That should be interesting. Also it was really sweet of her to tell Jenna she looked nice.

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Let's talk Lacey, she had some really great scenes with Jenna last night, particularly the dress scene.  Jenna is frantic over the fact that she HATES the dress she bought and Lacey came to the rescue allowing Jenna to wear "Nana's dress", which we learn is a huge deal. Lacey gets all tearful and tells Jenna, "...you are the best part of me...because you're not me. You are better." She then hugs Jenna tightly and tells her she's "so sorry", which you just write off as her being sorry for crying, but did it mean something more?

The BIG issue of pretty much the whole season was the Carefrontation Letter, and just as promised last night we discovered the the author really was. After she and Jake accidentally set off the security alarm, Jenna goes looking for the shutoff code, which she has conveniently forgotten in the kitchen junk draw. Silly Jenna, every girl knows to keep the code in your cell phone for quick access. However the search through it leads to a VERY disturbing discovery. The stationary that the Carefrontation Letter was written on. Jenna's first thought, Mom.  I will admit to toying with the idea that it was Lacey who wrote the scathing letter, but I'm not 100% sure I buy it. After all didn't Tamara confess to writing the letter? If that wasn't true, why should we believe this discovery? I'm not fully accepting Lacey as "A Friend" until she admits to it and/or there is concrete proof.

Okay, onto what we all really want to discuss. We're gonna end with every body's favorite love triangle. Let's face it the past couple of episodes they've totally been trying to build the Team Matty camp, and although I've been on Team Jake from the beginning, I'll admit they've done a pretty good job of it. As I've said before, Matty's not a bad guy, Jake is just better for Jenna. So while I was ecstatic that it ended up being Jake that Jenna picked, I'm a bit worried that she picked him too soon.

Seriously, they have now made Jake into the obstacle keeping Jenna and Matty apart, and he is far better than that. Let's be honest, Matty is not going to be able to handle "loosing" Jenna, there is a 95% chance he's gonna start avoiding her and/or Jake, and most likely gonna get a little bitter/snippy in the process. Whereas Jake would have definitely been hurt, but being the adorable puppy he is, would have stuck by her, been a good friend and waited patiently for her to come around.

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A perfect example of his tendency to do this was when she was in total turmoil over the Carefrontation letter being printed on the ballots. Who came to make sure she was ok and try to cheer her up? Not Matty. It was Jake and that was even after she turned down his winter formal invite. And when Jenna ended up asking him to go with her, after her whole blow up at Matty, he could not have been more adorable.


Jake doesn't even hesitate to having Tamara come with them, because, despite personally wanting it to be a more romantic evening, he knows it'll make Jenna happy. He's not afraid to be a dork, especially if it'll make her smile and trust me that's a big deal, especially in high school.

He likes Jenna because of who she is and how everything feels so easy with her. When she asked him if he believed in fate and he told her, "I don't know, but considering you're here...with me...right now...means that the universe is working in my favor", my heart melted a little. Hell, I would have kissed him too!

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 Oh and can we talk about that kiss for a min? I'm so happy it wasn't one of those "kiss moments" you see in every tv show/film, the sweet/tender/too perfect/this when we kiss kiss. No, it is a full on teenager make out kiss! I may have actually cheered. Then the scene outside her house after the dance was adorable. When she says she wants to take it slow, he takes her hand and tells her, "Look, there's no rush, I'm not going anywhere", which is something Matty never would have done. Jake wants an actual relationship with her, as a person, and while it's clear he's attracted to her, especially by the speed in which he answered yes to her inviting him in, it's not just about the physical.

He's actually proud to be with her, he's excited to bring her over Matty when he sees that he is at the dance. I mean he's practically beaming. Of course, his happiness is what actually clouds him from seeing what's happening between Matty and Jenna.

I HATE that Jenna refers to him as her head's choice by the way. It makes it sounds like she's just using him. Clearly she must have some feelings for him, or she wouldn't have kissed him at the dance. It was only after the kiss, when she saw Matty that she started to once again feel conflicted.

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While part of me feels bad for Matty, he brought this upon himself. If he had just said something to Jake, months ago, when he started this whole affair with Jenna, this wouldn't have happened. Hell, even if he had something when Jake told him about the accidental kiss, I'm pretty sure Jake would have put thoughts of perusing Jenna out of his mind, but no. In fact, Matty didn't even really start seriously perusing Jenna, booty calling aside, until AFTER Jake confessed to thinking he had feelings for Jenna. So while his feelings, could very well be real, and I'm not saying they're not, I can't help but feel that they are bolstered by competition with Jake.

The first season of Awkward is being released on DVD November 7th. You can preorder it at MTV.com, no word yet on when season 2 premiers. I honestly have no idea what I am going to do til then...